Tammy's Creative Connection Blog

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Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Get Real Monday.

Today I got to spend the morning with Amy Black and her precious 5 yo daughter Ryland at the hospital. Ryland had her tonsils removed this morning. She was so cute, I arrived just as they gave her the medicine to make her tired, but she told me they gave her a little bear and she named it Sparkles. She look so tiny in that big hospital bed as they wheeled her to surgery. When they took her to have surgery, Amy and I sat in the waiting room just talking and talking. I think I did most of the talking just to keep her mind from not worrying about little Ryland. The time flew by and pretty soon they said she was all done and in recovery. She was able to go up to her room and on the way up they gave her a popsicle...boy...she enjoyed that popsicle I will tell you. She could barely keep her eyes open but she wasn't letting go of that popsicle or her litte bear sparkles. She was such a trooper through the whole thing. Amy was too. ;-) I thought how cute this little girl was and how precious she acted all sedated and what a big girl she was at a mere 5 years old. It brought me back to a time when Heather was 7 and she had surgery on her ears and had to wear a cast around her ears for 6 weeks. How resilent children really are..it amazes me. To watch Amy with her little girl was so touching...they were going home and she had the bed all set up for Ryland to watch all the movies she wanted....they had a date with Mary Poppins. How sweet!! Amy even made her a little set of jingle bells so she didn't have to strain her voice if she needed anything. Now, that is a mothers love I tell ya!!

So pray for little Ryland as she heals from her surgery and pray for Amy as she takes care of her with 2 other children to care for as well.

I was honored to be able to be there for a friend and watching the two of them together blessed me beyond measure.

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Saturday Musings

Yesterday, I spent an hour at New Balance shoes trying to find me the perfect shoes for my training for the 3 day walk. I never thought buying good shoes would be so time consuming or costly. Yikes!! It was crazy...because the guy said I had the weirdest feet...go figure. I underpronate so I wear my shoes down on the outside of my heal...but I also have very high arches...which he said is totally weird. Okay...so we all knew I was weird..so now I know my feet are weird too. Great!!! After trying on at least 15 pairs of shoes, 5 different arch supports, and socks that wick...I never knew there was such a thing. I walked out of there with some great shoes. I met a friend this morning to do some more training, I only got in 3 miles...my shins and groin started to hurt, but hey...I got some training in. For someone that is pretty sedentary that is pretty good. Walking up the stairs took a little more effort than usual too...LOL.

Well, after that walk I had all this energy so I came home and shampoo'd the carpet in the living room that so desperately needed it, thanks to the dogs. Did some laundry and had lunch now I am spent. So, now I think I spend the rest of the day working on some creative projects, reading or playing Wow....so many options. What to do?

Oh...and my allergies didn't act up today even though the wind was blowing like crazy. Praise the Lord.

I have also earned more donations this morning!!! Thanks Shannon and Sandy...I appreciate you both!!!

Friday, May 7, 2010

My First Five Miles

I have always wanted to do this 3 day walk, but was too afraid too. It is one of those things I put on my bucket list. I thought I will never be able to walk that far, I will never be able to raise $2300, I will never have the time it takes to devote to training. But I always tell people "do it scared" well that is just what I am doing. I am doing it scared!!!

Today I started my training for the 3-day walk for a cure that is in November. I am excited to report that I walked my first 5 miles and I did it outside, which is huge for me since I have such bad allergies. Now, I did come home and had to take some benedryl....but I did it!!!

Brian laughed at me last night because I walked up the stairs and was out of breath, but I walked 5 miles today and was totally fine. I am excited where God is going to take me on this journey and also excited for the where he is going to take the team Ta-Ta Titans!!

I received my first donation today and that was exciting to see that number up there on my page. Thanks Kim!!!

I know that God is going to be holding my hand through this whole process and yes, there will be days where my shins will hurt, that my allergies will get the best of me, when I will just not feel like walking...but I also know that Gods grace is sufficient for me!!! I am going to do this...for Kelley, for all other women that have to fight this disease, for my two daughters that I hope they find a cure and never have to experience this disease, and for myself to see me reach a goal and scratch this off my bucket list.

You can click donate on my blog and it will take you to my donation page...no donation is too small. Inch by inch is a cinch!! I will get this done one step at a time with God and with the support of family, friends and my other team members!!

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Laughter is the best medicine!!!

Our home is full of laughter. There is not a day that goes by that we don't laugh with each other or at each other. I want my kids to remember laughter and fun when they grow up...Heather and Chris are grown up...I keep forgetting that.

Melissa, Heather and her boyfriend went out the other day to alley cats and won some really cool mustaches...they probably cost them $20 a piece to win enough tokens for the stupid things. But we had some fun with them. This is just a typical day at our house. Heather refused to wear them so her boyfriend(Chris) Mel and I did...sorry the picture is blurry..she forgot to put the flash on.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Get Real Monday.

I can't believe the first TCAL women's retreat is over. I don't like things to end, I kind of go through a greiving process. Brian says that is why I sometimes don't finish things I don't want things to end. But this weekend was filled with some of the most amazing women any person can be blessed with. We had so much fun preparing for the event. To see everyone's hard work and dedication to the retreat was just inspiring to say the least. To look across a sea of 115 women and see them praising the Lord is a glimpse of what heaven will be like, I was in awe and of course I cried. I thought of God looking down on that room and Him thinking "this is what I want from all of you to have real relationship with each other and with Me your Lord". (do you put quotation marks before or after the period?) Anyway, I could feel the presence of God so strongly in that room even before the women came in, it was like God was dwelling there. I loved it!! There is nothing like feeling the presence of God....it sometimes overwhelms me.

There was a few things that God really laid on my heart this weekend and some of it was not too good. One of the chains I carry is insecurity, I touched on that in my last post, so I think God had been already working on me with that particular chain leading up to the retreat. But still to actually take it in and write it on a piece of paper made it real.

One of the speakers, Beth as she was speaking I thought she has been reading my journals? She spelled out my life right there as she spelled out hers...it was so freaky. We both have very similar backgrounds, so simiular in fact I thought maybe I had another sister that my parents didn't tell me about. The thing is most of the same chains she listed were my chains some in the past and some I am still dealing with presently. She mentioned that her mom didn't work so she wanted to make sure she didn't have to rely on any man to take care of her. I was like that....I thought and did those same things. I didn't want any man to control me. So for a very long time I was going to control me, I didn't want anyones help, it was me against the world...well I am afraid to tell you I struggled with the chain of pride...and I still have to watch myself or it will rear it's ugly head in my life. I didn't want to admit that for the longest time in my life, I needed others help...in essence I was telling everyone I can do it better than you can. I can't tell you probably how many times I blocked someone by blessing me or being blessed because of my pride. Another thing she said is she didn't like to show emotion, I struggled with that for years. I thought I was not going to let anyone see me cry for that was a sign of weakness. That tough exterior, the thoughts of if I seen people cry I would be like "come on, put you big girl panties on and get with the program. Yes, I used to think those things...that is awful to admit, but it was true. Thank God he has ripped that away from me...now I cry all the time and I know that "in our weakness He is made strong". Now, when women cry I have this heart of mercy and compassion that I swear is from God and I just want to hold them. Praise God he has given me this gift and I see women through His eyes now.

Anyway, it was like God took Beth's talk and said here "Tammy look this is you" I was so floored...I was confused...I was emotional...but I also was grateful that God cares enough about me to show me yet again some more layers he has peeled off or is continuing to peel off of me. Thank you Beth for your transparency and being obedient to what God laid on your heart to share.

The other thing God showed me in a very powerful way is to be PRESENT with the person who is in front of you. I swear I have ADD. I can be talking to someone and sometimes my mind goes to the 10 other things I should be doing. Well, that happened this weekend with a young woman named Michelle. It was the end of the retreat and we were cleaning up and she came up to me to talk to me really to reach out to me and my mind was on how much I needed to get done. I was not present with her...I felt the Holy Spirit say "ask her if she needs to pray or talk" and I was not obedient...all I thought was "tammy you have to go do this and do that". How incredible rude I was to her!!! So, she went on her way. About 10 minutes later I saw her talking with another leader of the retreat and she led that girl to Christ. Can you believe I missed an opportunity because I was so busy? That I didn't stop just to be with that woman...that I was so selfish and self centered? I did not give Michelle the time and attention she deserved!!! That made me sick in my spirit. I cried all the way home, because I knew in my heart I could have possibly damaged her, what if she left and never talked with the other leader? How many more people have I done that too? How many more opportunties have I missed because I was so busy to be present with that person? I was crying not because I wanted to be the one to lead her to Christ...I was crying because I didn't give her the time and attention she deserved, that I didn't listen to the Holy Spirit, that I let her down and let God down. Now, I know God's mission was accomplished she will be in heaven and her name is now written in the lambs book of life and I praise God for that!! It is amazing how God works everything together for good. I know I wasn't the to be the one to lead her to Christ, but He used that as an opportunity for me to learn a very valuable lesson to be present with the one you are with. Don't let the busyness of your mind or life get you off track from the relationships God made us to build. So, if I am in your presence and you see that I am not really paying attention to you or my mind is somewhere else...I beg you to remind me to BE PRESENT.